hiccups

gila busy sial! >:(
keep redoing, reworking on the freaking same drawing for 3 days

can u please explain properly before I've drawn everything?
bloody hell waste of time
grrr

and then u ask me when can I finish?!
i also want to know when can I finish when the other guy kept correcting stuffs on the drawing
bloody hell don't tell me sekali gus one shot, sebiji biji correction tell one by one
u want me to print how many times?
sienness

"Bismillah! No, we will not let u go! Let him go!
Bismillah! No, we will not let u go! Let him go!
Oh mama mia, let me go.Mama mia, let me go!!!"
i want to go home :/ 6pm alrd!
(if my msian fellow frens read this, they'd kill me)

cis bedebah.kill me pls.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
i'm not stress, just...just...HAIH
it feels like u put a rubbery rope in front of u, then u try to run towards it
after a certain distance, u keep staying on the same spot, or if u r not strong-willed enough to stay at that spot, u get flung back further behind.

bohemian rhapsody

I've heard a few times but it didn't really taken over my soul until....now-,-
so, I'll probably listen to this song for days before i move on.lol
love the piano accompaniment & vocal harmonisation.

I'm itching to play this song, plus the vocal range is possible for me!!
i could play & sing at the same time! :D
i.just.need.my.bloody.piano T_T
please..please..please..piano oh piano
plus i got the music sheet! plus this youtube can sing along! PLUS PLUS PLUS!!

sidenote:
had a great laugh ytd ;) BAHAHAH!
kabhi kushi kabhi gham labourer + raped at site

乾隆皇帝解「夫」 字

乾隆到江南巡視，見一農夫扛著鋤頭，就故意跟身邊的宰相張玉書開玩笑： 「這是什麼人？」

張回答說：「他是個農夫。」

乾隆又問：「農夫的『 夫 』字怎麼寫？」

張順口答道：「就是二橫一撇一捺，轎夫之夫，孔夫子之夫，夫妻之夫，匹夫之夫都是這麼寫。」

不料乾隆聽後搖頭說：「你這個宰相，連這個夫字的寫法也辨別不清。」

乾隆皇帝說：
「 農夫 是刨土之人，上寫土字，下加人字；
轎 夫肩上扛竿，先寫人字，再加二根竹竿；
孔老 夫子 上通天文，下曉地理，這個夫字寫個天字出頭；
夫 妻是兩個人，先寫二字，後加人字；
匹 夫是指大丈夫，這個字先寫個大字，加一橫便是。
用法不同，寫法有別，不能混為一談啊。」


所以啊，做人不要只望一方面想。。。凡事都要替别人着想，要望多方面思考，要三思而后行， 要随机应变。
希望大家可以领悟到内容的一些暗示 ：）

live life.love life

it's alrd 3am & can't sleep at allso, i'm here blogging :)

Chinese are raised with the teachings of Confucius, whether or not you've learnt the virtues/moral from his teachings itself, our way of living is still pretty much based on Confucius teachings. Not that I'm stereotyping or what, but of course other cultures would have similar teachings, but the concept of the teachings are pretty similar regardless races & cultures. Read Adeline Yen Mah's book & you would agree with me.

there is always a constant dilemma to act upon the choices we've made.
One would act whatever he likes to; the other one would search for agreement from the people around them.
so....one should succumb to his selfish desires or one should live in accordance with the general rules of the society?
rules here doesn't mean written law. rules here are talking about teachings that would serve as a guide in our daily living. you might learn it from school but life experience would provide valuable lessons to be spiritually enlightened?

By succumbing to our selfish desires, one would live true to his character & principles. One would also be happy from the bottom of their heart & truly express oneself. However, one would also act in his own will (depending on his level of maturity) which might gain/lose respect from the ppl around. Because what he does doesn't look right/comfortable in the eyes of ppl.

To live in accordance with the general rules of society, we look into opinions from friends & family. We always look into what fits the society & I'm pretty sure everyone would have a general idea of how the law of cosmos work. Being part of the society, by common sense, one would adhere to the system of the society. However, would one have too much of self control & lose vision of his desires in a long run?

This applies to any situation/challenges/problems/choice in life.
So..are u making excuses to fulfill your desires?
OR
are u trapping yourselves in a whole set of principles & living rigidly?

Whatever choices made, just make sure that u've thought about it thoroughly & don't regret about the choices made, later in life. Striking a balance in-between is an art that one must learn so that one would live with dignity without regrets

life's too short :) so live life, love life~!

ok..sleeping bug has started creeping up in me
nudge nudge!~zzz
will review this post again when I'm more awake-.-

dream.full moon.ketchup

Did i just have a magnificent dream ytd night?
ahhh! was it real? was it?! was it?! :D
was like desperate housewife when internet wasn't working well

it was a full moon night
nope. i didn't transform into werewolf.
I listened to classical music instead.
all the songs are from nodame cantabile album <3
sedap! relaxing~ all of a sudden i felt so artistic -.-

part of ytd's MSN conversation
Me: I was lying on my bed looking out at the full moon
FF: Did u think of me?
Me: No
FF: Why? :(
Me: How to imagine with a face on the moon? the moon is super big & round u know!
FF: ...
Me: U'll look like lollipop, head round & big, body thin like stick
FF: Good also wat, nnt u boleh jilat...
Me: damn.
FF: :D
Me: wargh!

Today, ppl whom I haven't seen for a long time, sms-ed me :)
Nice to hear from long time ago ppl ^^
shehan: the last i saw him was spanish fest night at night cat
andres: last time was dono when at syn bar
joyce: always bump into her at CS but never got chance to hang out
mosh: a brand new friend i just knew from night cat.
time to schedule my time to ketchup ketchup! ~.~
but my mum just sent me a thesis email asking me tons of questions, got to find out stuffs
hmmm...time time time i need time!

current addict:
*Piano Concerto No. 2 by Sergei Rachmaninoff
My fave composer of all time. His emotion sensitivity is carried intimately thru every single note in his composition. I felt so much when listening to this piece. Why do I say so?
When I was listening to this song, the element that struck me was a significant depression, hopelessness, struggles & gradually seeing hope & light at the end of the road. Then when I hopped over to wiki & check out abt him, he wrote this song when he was having mental problems, life was difficult on him & he was treated at an asylum. When he got better after slowly overcome the emotional obstacles, he composed this song.
great work. HIGHLY HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.

heaty.moonlight

longggg day at work-,-
basically did a lot of things but didn't achieve anything

ytd night was still suffering from the heatiness of the lamb, bekkk bekkkk~
or maybe it's the heatiness from thai food we had for dinner
damn..i love our small family outing, wasting time talking rubbish
ah! one of my fave past times :P

I'm happy that I could now make it to kish's party this week & also twin's camping/bday at torquay next week. things worked out in the end ^^

headache....heart pounding fast & hard too
babi la because of the 3 hours difference between melb n kl
by 10.30pm i'm already struggling to keep myself awake while they r still happily eating bloody dinner=,=
ytd night my jelutong house was overflowing with humans..eldest aunt & family came over (mum's side), 3rd aunt & family from perth (dad's side) went over~
so dinner took 2x longerrr..my ketiak alrd got spider webs by the time u all FINALLY came online la!!! T^T
but nvm..get to see my moon-faced sis, so i'm happy :D
was telling my mum abt the apt unit, but because my house was so noisy, connection was bad on their end, HAIH..want to talk more also difficult..

ytd night's moon was almost full & really bright, shining into my room
before i sleep, i just laid on the bed looking out towards the blue starry sky
with beethoven's moonlight sonata playing in my brain (jz to sound artistic.ceh wah!)
it's been long since i've enjoyed scenery in tranquil.yumm~

feeling confucius.feeling plato

felt different after falling sick for 4 weeks
couldn't quite place the issue verbally, not physical i know..
spiritual? mental? i've got to be nuts-.- dumdidum
been feeling stagnant lately altho i've been having those complicated internal feelings & trying to sort them out

i'm sorry that i've been searching everywhere else for answers
i promise i won't read/listen/ask from other sources
because i chose to believe, to believe in u

caught on confucius-bug
one of my challenges in life is to bare myself, to risk myself & embark on the journey of the unknown, thus, pursuing the true emotional liberation, instead of putting off the inner transformation or quest for happiness & love that is deserved
commoner talk: to grab on every oppurtunity & enjoy/enhance/learn fr them lohhh..
(as u know, to speak like plato/confucius, u must speak of sth that is hard to understand; as usual, ppl won't understand anyway, so i got to speak like a commoner.haha~)

i feel like philoso-fying dance too :)
can't help it, caught on the plato-bug :P
to be able to bond with the music & express elements within, using body, feelings, flow & intuition is an unexplainable joy

an experiential journey of freedom with a sense of belonging
completely puts stress behing & live in a short-lived fantasy, temporary escapism
lala lala~

what i did over...err...weekends?
hari raya haji was over fri & sat
shah ordered 2kgs of korban kambing but the person gave him the whole lamb leg!
thus, shah's friends & syed, maggie, me had bbq lamb for lunch & roasted lamb for dinner.seriously atkins diet, strictly protein ONLY

after dinner, went over to night cat (highlight of the day)
i think it was the best night so far
everyone berasap because of the huge amount of lamb meat consumed
WAHAHAHAHAH!
and bloody shah didn't believe that mutton is a heaty food..
all of us couldn't concentrate dancing because of the heat generate from the body
gile babi!~ XD
and I get to dance with jai & his 2 other friends in one song! (fast salsa song btw)
at first, i went over to ask jai for a dance coz i haven't danced with him
omg.they were all so good..each has their distictive way of leading. ECSTASY!
been thrown, yanked, pulled, pushed like yoyo, YET dono y i enjoyed the adrenaline rush, & trusted their lead, feels like whether i'm toppling over or not, doesn't matter coz they'll pick me up again without letting me crash to the floor
sedap! <3

current addict: creedence clearwater - have u ever seen the rain?
i just want to know...have u ever seen the rain? :D

fat book.KL.sleep

aih..how can i read the fat book?
can't carry it in my bag & read in tram
as u know, it's a chunk of fat papers T^T
meaning i've to struggle to make more time to actually read it
hmm..means spending more time at home? yerr.. :/

don't find social dancing that addictive like drugs anymore
sort of like a phase where it's controllable, neutral.
but i still do enjoy dancing :D

can't wait to go back KL to be with my moon-faced sis & cousin
stupid la..y did I compromise my flight date to air asia sales period?
2 weeks of hols in dec + 1.5 weeks of hols in jan..what to do!?
(not exactly free tho, got to move house but don't think need 3.5 weeks guar!!)
wonder who else is still in melb till jan :D let's hang out!

just.feel.like.sleeping.jadi.babi.
no.matter.how.much.sleep.is.still.not.enough.
i'm.....really....really....exhausted.
jealousnyaaaaa, u malaysians~ got public holiday today :/

current addict:
kadu & larissa's zouk song <3
x tau title, x tau singer, sedapppp~

fun night.fear.toilet

zouk was harder than i thought, nearly got leg cramps=,=
maybe haven't figure out how to use the forces yet..
but i'm really keen to dance well in zouk (my fave)
love how there are many strands of music that accompanies each other to create a beautiful piece of melody & we must bond with the accents & rhythm of the song <3

an idea of how zouk looks like:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlV8c2TXB5M

after that, we went for a gig at softbelly which lasted until 12.30am
o.O gila tired ah~ but i don't feel like going home so early :(
Vlad, Raf, Muaiz & some random girl had their jammin' session
apparently Vlad's bday was ytd night too :)
had a great night ^^ wish fifi can come to their jams too :)

Sharing my 2 cents^^sth which i discovered this yr
self discovery & interaction between ppl have been my interest for some time now..
it's intriguing & enlightening to read & also experience every moment of it

This post I'm going to talk abt fear :D
One must face one's fear & overcome it
It may feel vulnerable to expose oneself, even I sometimes struggle to display the deepest emotions within me, worst still, to figure out what's going on within oneself to be able to know what emotions to display externally..
It is dangerous to inflict stress & fear internally, because it'll eventually harm your vitality.
Human is complex in a way because a display of emotions, affections etc could be channeled internally & externally too..when both didn't click or balance in harmony, that's when we'll breakdown & feel at lost.
Sometimes it's better to take a step back, slow down your footsteps & smell the flowers.

my hidden meditation space is my bathroom because of its tranquility, secludedness, isolation, & secureness.
I feel a bit calmer and can really think properly & sort things out.
Didn't realise my this habit until like this yr =_=
i'd always wondered y am i in the toilet for an hour most of the time since college days.
yuan lai i'm zoning out in there *_*
toilet is my highly recommended space for reflection :) altho toilet is also a space that is highly neglected other than its convenience

had a brief chat with huixian just now, sometimes i just love how smart she is
a chat like this means so much (don't kembang jz coz i praise u!! hmph!~)

don't worry, i just need to sort things out internally within myself
just need to find that balance within self again, then i'll be back to my normal self
so wait for my return, i just need time ;)

current addict:
COLORS~ melody & harmony - jj & yuchun
great match of voice: jj's feminine with strong, healing voice
& yuchun's bass with a tinge of sadness
like the melody & harmony & love~~

list-to-do.busy.zouk.

choosing apt units in college square can be so headache=,=
damn. left level 2 or 3 for cardigan units only
it's like choosing between 2 red apples, what's the difference?

enrolment submitted
read (left fat book)
bills paid

haven't:
tidy my desk
buy xmas present
sell thom's bike
sort out other bills coz haven't tidy my desk

will do visa after getting my uni offer letter mid dec.hmm
did i miss anything out?

damn busy at work today
fingers hurt from crazily clicking the bloody mouse

zouk! zouk! zouk!